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Thursday, February 28, 2013

A Flash Light for the Valley of the Shadow of Death

Before every mission I would kneel next to drivers side tire of my Humvee and pray.

"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I shall fear no evil. For thou art with me, Thy rod and thy staff they comfort me" Palm 23:4.

I believed then and believe now that there are supreme beings. The culmination of these supreme beings is God.

I make this claim based on Genesis 1:27.

To me this makes sense. I believe God has an infinite number of Expressions.

Anyway, each time I'd go out into the valley I'd give up my soul to God. If it was my time to go then so be it.

My point is that I would let go. I would surrender.

"Fear, doubt, worry......fuck it.....not good for shit. Let go, mutha fucker" this quote is from the great and wise leader Smoke Martez. Chow hall, FOB Loyalty, October 6, 2006.

I think it was easier, heck I know it was easier, to let go and let God in Iraq, than it was for me back home.

The doubt, worry and fear back home consumed me and kicked my butt for years.

I'm on the other side of that right now because I've accepted the fact that God didn't just make me in the image and likeness of divinity, he also endowed me with some of His traits like love, courage, and compassion to guide me through difficult times.

Yesterday after wounded warrior yoga class at Walter Reed I talked with a soldier who was in Iraq the same time I was. This soldier got smashed by an IED too and their path since then has been a rough one.

"I had a career, a mission, a path, now I have nothing, but surgeries and pain"

Sounded like the shadow of death to me.

It being a Yoga class I didn't quote this soldier scripture. Instead I chanted a yogic sutra: book II:1

Tapah Svadhyayesvara Pranidhanani Kriya Yogah

"Accepting pain as help for purification, study of spiritual books and surrender to the supreme being constitute yoga in practice."

Sounds familiar, right?

I didn't go into detail, but I did ask this soldier if they wanted to chat more.

You see I don't think that this soldier is totally screwed because of the 17 surgeries and maybe losing the way. I Think they Think. Sorry for being cryptic, but if we hold the Divine scriptures to be true and we surrender to them then all that is in our way is thought.

Now, one of the things Yoga has done for me is give me an outlet to channel those thoughts into thoughts worth having.

Had I not suffered so much in the past would I be able to talk on a level that this suffering soldier would or could resonate with? I don't think so.

For me, this Yoga Sutra takes what the Bible says one step further by creating a practical way to think about pain.

This notion doesn't eliminate the pain, but it does create a way to think about it.

I'll tell you this, if Smoke Martez hadn't given me that advice in the chow hall I don't think I could have walked that valley so often.

This post was guided by the 51st stanza of the Art of Peace, a book written by Morihei Ueshiba
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If you like the AD Facebook page and I'll email you the PDF of a book called "Mindfulness in Practical English".

Lisa Wimberger's meditations:

Grounding Your Armor

Neutral Space

Mind Cordon

Riding the Sun

Thrive as a civilian.

1 comment:

  1. Ben, this is an extraordinary post. You make me proud. Would you send me "Mindfulness in Practical English." I hope your soldier friend can find his way out of hopelessness.